Carrio Xanders They Don't Know
[Bridge]
So many people wanna talk but they don't know what it means to be feeling suicidal
Nobody really understands all the rage and pain that's deep down inside ya
Gotta cater to your demons, gotta feed your emotions, they become like an idol
So many people wanna talk but they don't know, they don't know nah
[Chorus]
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know
[Verse 1]
I need you right here by my side but I don't need you to save me
I'm having a hard time to choose maybe I should love me or hate me
The stress in my mind's sort of driving me nuts, I don't know what I should make of it
And all you can see is the smiles, nah, you don't really want me to say this shit
All the times that I am waiting at the bus station hoping the pain'll pass away
Or all the times that I'm traveling in a train, thinking that it'll crash in a lake
I'm not priding in my pain, I'm not priding in my sorrow, I'm just fighting for tomorrow
Is your happiness for rent? Is your happiness for lease? Let me know if I can borrow
Am I still alive? I don't even know. I don't even glow
Need to ask God questions and I need to know
Ran away twice before so I don't wanna hit the road
But I'm a bloody sinner and of course, I'm hypocritical
First place was the worst place, but now I'm in a different zone, boy I better pray
Did you bless me or curse me? Or why am I always afraid of another day?
Can't even meet my friends anymore. Don't wanna hear some boring jokes, I don't wanna fake a smile
Nah buddy, I'm sorry, don't call me. I don't wanna hang out. Been hibernating for a while
Give me time, I need my sanity back
I don't know what I did but I need my family back
And it feels like the Spirit's gone out of me, I just wanna get this paraclete back, yeah yeah yeah
[Bridge]
So many people wanna talk but they don't know what it means to be feeling suicidal
Nobody really understands all the rage and pain that's deep down inside ya
Gotta cater to your demons, gotta feed your emotions, they become like an idol
So many people wanna talk but they don't know, they don't know nah
[Chorus]
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know
[Verse 2]
Been to calvary, dropped all my worries there
Wanted to speak face to face but nobody's there
I saw a placard hanging telling me to hang on
But I got this one shitty life that I'd rather spare
Got so many things I wanna say to the Lord
So I went to the cross, spent the day with the Lord
Before the Crucifix, I should pray to the Lord
But I got emotional, I screamed my pain to the Lord
Screaming out my loudest voice, Lord I need some help
All these nightmares and crazy dreams would rather leave me dead
How do you explain how I got stabbed in my neck
And I woke up to find blood dripping down my chest
I keep seeing the woman that sold me to the feds
And I wonder if she saw my face the same night when she slept
I wonder if she thought that she was doing the right thing
But she destroyed a family when she kicked my life in
Before then, I was already a maniac
They just found the right avenue so they can paint me black
I got iniquities and I'm not sure if God just paid me back
Hostility everywhere, I'll be the man to take the flak
Right now, I'm a melancholic masochist
But down in my DNA, I'm wired to be a pacifist
So I sit quiet seeing where the road leads me
My insolence and paranoia now feeds me
Wanna dig a hole in the middle of this universe
You'll take me serious when I plunge myself into the earth
I'm naked, I need a covering for my soul
And I'm lost in the world, I've been running round the globe
It's a mad ting, a mad feeling tingling my brain
But I really got to stop blaming it on the pain
It feels like the Sahara, God please make it rain
But even if you do, my life will never be the same, yeah
[Bridge]
So many people wanna talk but they don't know what it means to be feeling suicidal
Nobody really understands all the rage and pain that's deep down inside ya
Gotta cater to your demons, gotta feed your emotions, they become like an idol
So many people wanna talk but they don't know, they don't know nah
[Chorus]
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know nah nah
They don't know, they don't know