George Monastiriakos Long Way Round
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[Verse 1]
Man on a mission just sitting here overthinking
Isolated and distant, plus I'm dismissive
In bed for 5 days, and my shoulder's in a sling
F..ck hydromorphone, I could handle the pain
Can't sleep for one week, and that's out of the way
Can't go to school for 6, and I'm starting to stray
Can't run, can't escape, I'm always running away
Overcompensate by walking 12 kilometres a day
I'm such a control freak, that's my sobriety
Surrounded by my family, drowning in anxiety
F..ck stress, my mom asks if I'm depressed
There's a pain in my chest, it's a painful event
Not anxiety again, it's all in my f..ckin' head
It's dangerous and there's pain to vent
There's so much to express
I could never f..ckin' rest, I could barely sit down
Go your way, I'll find my own way round
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[Verse 2]
I'm doing better now, I have to say it loud
I say it proud, I just had to get it out
A week before my surgery, my mom lost her job
3 times in 5 years, they keep laying her off
That's why I can't stop, why I battle against the odds
Why I work hard to rig this motherfuckin' deck of cards
I can't be chaotic, 'causing hysteria
Stupid motherfuckers think small like bacteria
Criticizing craziness turned me to an atheist
Self-cultivation, but isolation is dangerous
Full-time worker, full time student
Regardless how much I'm doing, there's always room for improvement
Never take a day off, I'm the opposite of soft
They say I've done a lot, but I haven't done enough
Never been in love, no time for games, no having fun
But that's the price that I pay for the man that I've become
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[Verse 3]
True to the end, I refuse to pretend
My dad's dead, I'll never see him again
Now his sister has cancer, another difficult process
Doctors'll save her life, not Jesus or Mohammed
You want conflict, that thought is retarded
Doesn't stand up to logic, and must be discarded
You think it's logical that a loving God is watching you
Go spend time at the f..ckin' children's hospital
When I question God, always the same response
Same religious alarms, extremists just going off
First, censoring my thoughts, then tellin' me I'm lost
I could say what I want, shut the f..ck up when I talk
Look beneath the surface, religion is almost worthless
Tell me what's the purpose when you're still a shitty person
More than glad to burn in hell just because I'm bad
Go your way, I'll find my own way like I always have