Hollohan It's All Behind Me
You try to find a good woman and share a normal life. Paranoia Strikes
You hear a noise at night, you swear to your boys that she might
Be calling the cops next time that she mad at you
To think this bitch could get me imprisoned just cause she gets an attitude?
They laid the boots to my back door
They came and stated they was the Canadian Fugitive Task Force
Had warrants for a man, who's not, known to keep the peace
Say that they's above the law, here to hold me for police/
He kept my hood down, let the neighbours see the man they once respected
They placed their judgement, made assumptions why I was arrested
Fuck accepting its over.. NO! I need another second
Parents hold their kids tight, feeling they been unprotected
"DUCK YO HEAD" Get in the back, time to visit my past
I say bye to them present times I'll be reminiscing em fast
Some rookie cop, act like he couldn't talk on the drive there
I'm being a formal speaking normal human being but the guys scared..man
I couldn't figure it out, it was hard explaining this
Til I seen on his screen, violence to authority, armed and dangerous...
Don't look at me like that pig!! You don't f..cking know me cop!!
HOW EASY YOU COULD ANGER ME....Or bout the self control I got
A man's past doesn't always flourish into his future
You're assuming who I am now from them words on your computer?
Arrive at the station, I'm tired of waiting
Why rush it? This is the end of my vacation but I'm impatient!
You can come and throw them f..cking punishments at me man I can take it
Water on my face, stared into the mirror but it's time I'm facing!
I use the phone to tell my mom, man she's overwhelmed! "CLICK"
Loneliness dwells in holding cells..
It's cold as hell, and that mouldy smell of my rotton past! MAN IM'A GO TO JAIL!
I'm laying on a cement bench on my back, how can they chuck us in cages?
I know they..Caught me when I was SL-SLipping under surveillance
But you can't live day to day runnin from government agents
Gotta deal with it.. Can't spell ya whole life locked up in yo basement...
I accept it's happening. Still I wish it wasn't
Transfer to transfer to transfer, the shits redundant!
Reasons for my freedom? I could think of hundreds!
I'm a threat against the public, but for FIVE YEARS YOU'D LET ME LIVE AMONG IT?
Sitting in f..cking minus thirty, it's a tomb in this truck
Don't even bother tell him loosen the cuffs
I deserve it..I too was abusive as f..ck
Wrists covered in bruises and cuts, it's crazyyy I used to be used to this stuff
Burning bridges, I've learned to live with, the worst decisions
TWENTY-THREE HOUR LOCKDOWN IS TIME TO REFLECT IN ALBERTAS PRISONS!!!
I needed clarity, but experienced the worst withdrawals
Fuck the world! Let it end here, final curtain call
Thick skinned, I had to be strong but these ain't plates of armour
Didn't let my girl visit, shit it would've only made it harder!
Man that life's a roller coaster. And it brings me only closer
To the man I used to be..and they gon fly me back to Nova Scotia!
They gazed at me in fear it was very familiar
Walking through the airport in chains like a serial killer
I seemed insane! I know my hands were cuffed and my feet were chained
But you're judgement I really f..cking didn't need that day
You could look in my eyes, see the passion, feel my pain
But still sense the calmness from that winters evening freezing rain
I didn't need escape, it was instantly accepted
But this point I'm content with being arrested
I've spent years feeling this tension, beating depression
So paranoid believing that even my friends could have evil intentions
Just consumed with drug abuse to sleep for a second
Do you know how it could feel to be affected...
In such a negative way, of every waking minute
When looking back I've made decisions that I'd hate to live with but I'm STAYING WITH THIS!
Once this plane has lifted from the ground
They searched for a man who doesn't exist, and grabbed a different one they found
Think days ago...Chillin with the friends and a few beers
Now I'm thinking what am I gon do here for a few years!!
And the poisons past through my system cause I ain't had any opiates
But it's just made it that much harder for me to expect to cope with this
Not a chance I'm gettin out, I ain't have any hope in it
Fuck it send me to court already man..LETS GET IT OVER WITH!
But it wasn't murder, so no need for witness protection
Convenient no one testified on they written confessions
Plus the lawyer went crazy at it, switched the defences
Man its magic, hit my conditional sentence
Times Changed..No more mind state of see cops. RUN!
It couldn't have ended better but my travels I learned alot from
To my friends who still locked, I ain't better then them!
But I know I'll never look over my shoulder ever again!!
See know it's all behind me. Raw studio sessions
Let the fans know what had happened. I know that you would respect it
Looking back on your life mans, the hugest reflection
Don't judge me when you havn't taken the time lately to look at you for a second
It's Hollohan!