James Diotic Higher Power
[Verse 1]
Don't hate me, these mistakes I been making
Higher powers know things that I been steady debating
I'm just looking for truth, can't get lost in the past
Nobody live like you, you can't follow no path
You can't tell me stop dreaming', I got personal reasons
And these personal verses hurting but help me achieve it
At times I cry this pain I feel inside
These drugs don't satisfy, man it's all a lie
They tell you something else, but they won't f..cking ride
I know that I ain't shit, like who the f..ck am I?
Recessed in to depression, I thought I learned my lesson
Man who cares anyway, why the f..ck I feel this way
[Hook]
'Cause I dont wanna go to hell, I don't wanna go to hell
Catch a nigga sippin' out the Holy Grail
Go and meet Jesus, Go and meet Jesus
(x2)
[Verse 2]
Why a f..cknigga wanna f..ckin' f..ck up everything
And bitches do the same too
They probably shoot my plane down too
I'm lonely in this world at times I feel like I won't make it
And I'm drowning in my thoughts that suicide will probably vanquish
But I couldn't take my life so punishment was cuts with razors
All across my chest so I could cover up the mess
I can't even stomach nothing like my body just rejects
And I know I need this meal 'cause I been skipping all the rest
Fuck
It's so heavy, so f..cking heavy, It's heavy
I don't know whether I'm ready to run or fall like confetti ‘cause
Lord knows they'll celebrate me if I win
But if I run away we'll never know what might've been
So I'll take my chances now ‘cause I won't have the same again
What I think when I'm alone
If I put it in a song
Maybe I won't feel so wrong
But maybe I was…