Jaytekz Dying Inside
[Verse 1: JayteKz]
I got these dark thoughts, clogging up my f..cking brain
Might grab a blade and let it puncture through my f..cking veins
Watch the blood drip, and let myself die slow
And when you find my body, make sure that my eyes closed
And this is me, this is how I truly f..cking feel
So, when you look me in my eyes, just know the pain is real
I've been through things that I won't never probably heal from
Stuck in my dreams, cause when I sleep is when I feel numb
I've never thought my life would turn into a nightmare
I fight my demons, but they never f..cking fight fair
If you only knew the half of what the f..ck I face
I try to move forward but it's like I'm stuck in place
No matter what, It's like the devil is chillin' on my shoulders
Everyday is getting darker, nights are getting colder
Barely sober just so I can leave reality
But, when the high wears off, depression just recaptures me
[Chorus]
Take a look into my eyes?
Can you tell me what you see?
I've been empty, dead inside
Take me out of my misery
Can you listen to my heart?
Can you tell me if it beats?
Can you see all of my scars?
Every single wound that is hit in deep
[Verse 2: JayteKz]
And I don't want to be alive no more
And I can't bear this pain, these tears I can hide no more
And I don't feel the love, no I don't feel the love at all
And nothing feels real, my life is just a big facade
I wish that I can change, I wish that I can smile again
I wish I could explain this hell which I'm drowning in
I'm sinking fast and I can feel my soul burn to ashes
Don't hold my hands when It's time for you to close my casket
Let me go, let me rest in peace and finally heal
And let my story represent the pain I once concealed
I gave it all I have but somethings just aren't meant to be
I tried to tell you that my time will come eventually
No matter what, just know I'm thankful for the life I had
I'm thankful for the memories and all the empty laughs
Forever sad, my Innocence will be forever gone
So long, I won't be breathing by the crack of dawn
[Chorus]
Take a look into my eyes?
Can you tell me what you see?
I've been empty, dead inside
Take me out of my misery
Can you listen to my heart?
Can you tell me if it beats?
Can you see all of my scars?
Every single wound that is hit in deep