Katori Walker Anxiety
[Verse 1]
Look, what's causing this anxiety I feel, man my heart hurt
Is this punishment or [chastising] for my wrong doings?
Cause this overthinking stopped my movement, got me paralyzed
Got me feeling like I'm 'bout to die and I'm terrified
What's really on that other side?
Don't nobody know
Ain't nobody came back from death like "This is where we go"
Man I still believe in God but we ain't never spoke
He done send me hella signs but we ain't never spoke
Am I trippin' off a book like the ones in Comic Con?
Is Harry Potter equal to the Bible equal to Quran?
'Cause in fact it was written by men
And it was given by men
Hope the ones who wrote it did it with the purest of hands, the purest of plans
I'm tryna understand the mission
Got so many questions, I don't think I plan to listen
I'm just questioning life and human beings
Or it could just be that I'm just runnin' from my demons
Had to tell the truth
[Chorus]
The thoughts up in my head [rumblin'] but it's alright
Everything I know been questioning but it's alright
Yeah it's fine
Yeah it's fine
These are just the random thoughts that's going through my mind
[Verse 2]
Got me questioning my life, got me questioning my morals
Yeah I'm 'bout to have it all, that means my daughter will be spoiled
That means she won't have to struggle
Does that really build character?
Give her everything for what life am I preparing her?
You gotta understand why I shower her with gifts
Because the fact I grew up broke and we ain't never had shit
So I'm living through her smiles and her satisfaction
Divide the hate and add the love even when it's fractions
Want her to understand it's more than just material shopping sprees and palm trees
Paid vacations, mansion living, and car keys
Outta mail robes, red bottoms and new things
Even though that's everything I wanted in my hood dreams
The hood seems so far away
I gotta cheers to make it out, but I came to say
You should always give thanks and ask for blessings from above
The biggest job as a father is to teach her how to love
Real shit
[Chorus]
The thoughts up in my head [rumblin'] but it's alright
Everything I know I'm questioning but it's alright
Yeah it's fine
Yeah it's fine
These are just the random thoughts that's going through my mind