Novatore Shotgun
Its 12 o'clock I'm feeling sick i made a tv dinner
Coming home from work out in the dead of winter
Wife is gone because she left me for another
Actually my brother, guess we really didn't even love each other
My seed is barren Karens pregnant with a baby
Nephew should'a been my son, they wonder if I'm goin crazy
I wonder too i let it fester all inside
It seems its easier for me if I'm pretending that she up and died
I'm aching up inside and dying in my mind
Its like i thought I had provided everything it hurts I try to hide it
Union buddies think I'm nutty see the open wound
As soon as i arrive you feel the silence overcoming the room
I think I'm doomed, confused, I'm headed for a tomb
Consumed by memories and sadness never laughter only mood is gloom
And I'm a lose it soon I feel it every second
Reckon I should end it quick the only questions whats the best of methods
[Verse 2]
December 24th I'm sitting in my shorts
The sports is on the tube i signed the papers for divorce
I called my mother on the phone and told her that i love her
Told me that were brothers and to fix it but i stay the course
Instead i wrote a letter
I said the world is betteroff without me in it
And how I wish that I had never met her
And I remember when i read her all my vows
And how the crowd had faded out and now I'm lying on my couch
Smoking cigarettes regretting all our bouts
He don't deserve her took the steel reserve and put it to my open mouth
This ain't a home its just a house and so i show it
Throwing empties on the floor i think I pissed all on the f..ckin sofa
I know its over gazing at the family photos
Man these polaroids destroy me summer nights in southern minnesota
I feel it get to me; the memories, the history
The shotguns in my mouth i pull the trigger and spray the best of me
[Verse 3]
His life is over my brothers lying on the sofa
Its bitter sweet the guy was farthest from a casanova
I felt so guilty for my role in this whole situation
But nobody is talking bout his other side the guy was satan
Blatant punches to the face if he was raging
Karens parents tried to save her grazed her with straightened razor
Domestic calls persisted his fists was always lifted
Shifted to a villain jealous Jamie thats the name we'd give him
She came to me for help when things were at their lowest
She was hoping i could lend a hand we made a plan and set it in motion
We put her in a hostel, we knew that he'd be hostile
Waited for him after work and put my pistol to his nostril
I told em slowly that their sacrament was over
He was drunk but think the metal barrel barely made him sober
From there i stayed with karen case he came to kill
I didn't mean to fall in love although it quickly happened still
It made him ill to know she left him for his brother
But that wasn't in the plan we just had shifted close to one another
And now I'm at his grave just wishing it was different
That he hadn't changed into that evil person that existed