Starlito Mental Warfare (feat. Robin Raynelle)
I spent all my time (Trying not to lose control)
All my time
I lost my mind (Trying not to lose my soul)
Trying not to lose my soul, my soul
When you alone the world seem so big, I feel like I'm by myself
Cause I never hear from nobody, until they need my help
I got 8 bills to pay today, and 2 more due on the 12th
Half of 'em ain't even mine, hell I probably just smoke what's left
I tell you what I ain't gon' do, feel sorry for myself
I'mma do it 'til they say I did it to death, fall off, nah dog kidding yourself
I'm at a crossroads where my choices determine my fortune
It's either do business with vultures or unemployment
Went to the doctor for one appointment, she said I was crazy
Well not really, depressed and prescribed all types of medication
I read the side effects, decided I wouldn't ever take 'em
How ironic I wasn't ever patient just overly dedicated
Can't please everyone, can't balance everything right now I don't even wanna try
Swear a nigga so mufuckin' tired that I might not sleep when I die
Riding 'round with this heat on my side
Since I was younger I had beef and all my pride
Cause these niggas think I'mma let it slide
My homies probably think I won't ride
I just think that I think too much
On top of that I still drink and get high
So f..ck it, it's an eye for an eye, now the blind lead the blind
Now you losing control, losing yo soul, losing time
Got off your grind, you lost yo mind, I spent all of mine trying not to