Viktor Ax Childhood Change (feat. GQ Nothin' Pretty, Block McCloud)
[Intro]
Yeah
If I could change anything, it'd go like this
[Verse 1: GQ Nothin' Pretty]
Born in seventy nine, then me and the eighties met
Crazy stress since I took my first baby step
Lately kept everything I felt inside
But it melts my pride, so I strive to keep myself alive
That's why I spit bars
Cause I'm pretty surprised I ain't die and I came this far
When I was young it was hectic
Having fun was a blessing
Getting scars
Moms working hard
Nothing but stressing
Stuck with aggression, paying the bills, making it real with my sister and brother
She refused to let us sit in the gutter
Yeah I wish she had more help, my pops tried a lil bit
Stop by, brought Popeye's, hot fries, and chicken strips
I know a lot of people out here had it more bad then me
I went to Yankee Stadium, I saw Don Mattingly
But if there's anything I could change in my life
My pops would have stayed, and tried making it right
Yeah
[Hook: Block McCloud]
Man, I wish I could rewind the clock
Bring it back and then time would stop
Press play, you're forever here
And I would never have to shed a tear
Yeaaah, oooh, whoooa
I would never have to shed a tear
[Verse 2: GQ Nothin' Pretty]
Do you appreciate this life that we jeopardize?
If I could change anything, my best friend would have never died
I was only in the fourth grade, I forever cried
We was with each other all day, made me exercise
Playing GI Joes
He got mad if you tossed 'em
He loved 'em so much, we put 'em in his coffin
His mom was hysterical, his pops kept his composure
But you could see in his eyes he couldn't accept it was over
My best friend Russell, a young boy, he loved his life
Fell in a coma when he slipped in a construction site
On weekends the bulldozers are left in the streets
He slipped and hit the side of his head on the teeth
I was traumatized when I looked in my momma's eyes
And asked her why
Would the most high murder kids
That point in my life was the turn of it
Then I wasn't concerned with shit
That was my best friend, he deserved to live
[Hook: Block McCloud]
Man, I wish I could rewind the clock
Bring it back and then time would stop
Press play, you're forever here
And I would never have to shed a tear
Yeaaah, oooh, whoooa
I would never have to shed a tear
[Verse 3: GQ Nothin' Pretty]
It's the little things in life you forget cause they always there
You should always care cause one day it won't be there
Let me share something personal
Maybe one day it be worth it to change the way you treat a person too
Moved from PA back to New Yitty
Cats is to gritty
Asking if you with me
And these are my dudes
I believed it was cool, not one day you would see me in school
My pops worked in the AM, he left before I have to leave
Then magically I fell back to sleep
He was always mad at me
Couldn't control what I did, maybe he should get to start knowing his kid
But I was just like him
All he could do was smile
Looked in my eyes and said son I'll be around for a while
And I felt it, even after all the bullshit he dealt with
I went and did something grimy I can't believe I got selfish
After a while he started feeling helpless
Cause shit was retarded, I remember one day
He was chilling at the bar, I was chilling at the park
Locked my keys in the crib, you not gonna believe this shit
Climbed in the AC window, I'm good so far
Then it fell out and dropped on the hood of a car
It was my supers
My dad had to pay mad bread
And all he told me was I had to use that head
I was a lucky kid, my pops never beat me, or mistreat me
As I got older he treated me like he need me
These be the things you don't value
Then I got locked up and had to do it without you
Didn't wanna know nothing about Q
My mom's bailed me out now
I'm sleeping on my friends couch too
That didn't last for a while
Move back to P.A. and started cracking a smile
It's a year later trying to turn my life around, going to Vo-tech now
Getting a little respect now
Off this rapping shit, killing mixtapes, having fun
Doing shows with KRS, Xzibit, and Big Pun
Dad, I wish we could have talked before ya left
Lost with all ya stress, I could have helped and walked you through the rest
But maybe you couldn't forgive me for the things I did when I lived with you
And realized that what kids'll do, I'm sorry
I wish I had a chance to make it up to you
But our family wasn't like the Huxtables
Uncomfortable, didn't know what to do when I heard the news
Concerned with you, I thought somebody murdered you
But you took your own life over a bitch
If you was sober the shit would have never happen
The moral of the story is, show love to ya fam
If I could change anything
He would have never had the gun in his hand