I Made You Myself Grew Some
Stay, love
You and I rhyme
There is life to be lived between us
But I understand reasons within my control have opposed you and driven you straight
Off the edge
And with weight On your head
You begin your descent
Like an arrow struck deep into mounds of concrete
You've done nothing but scatter your worth
If not chipped, if not blunted yourself
If not detached your head
Anyone capable
Of such thoughtless acts
Willingly throwing themselves off that bridge
Would surely be a product of such disconnect
From their brain or their back
But need I be reminded that the issue lingers deeper than the skin on you neck
Was it your neck that stays tender?
I feel I used to know these things once
But God knows
I'm far out of touch
With your love
I swear I never mean to bring it up
Believe me
I'm trying my best
And I'm sorry if
I keep repeating myself
I keep repeating to myself
The way I thought it was
Carry on bare
Away from the warmth of the radiant sun
Though I've been burned before
I'm unsure why it is I keep asking for more
So unclear is the path that awaits, yet we wonder what else can we do
Besides slowly assume that feeling's abused and subside to the way we see fits
What we thought were solutions to bones stretching out, became a stage housing curtain over brick
We expect what we give yet we shovel out our fears
I guess the price you pay becomes the reason you're afraid
What a shame
Caught you dancing on my tongue
It's a sweet, sweet taste
But I've had enough
If our last words ride out both of our lungs
I'd like to know who you are
Oh I can't quite depart from the thought
I'd like to know who you are
Cuz I only believe in the scars
That were left from the war we survived
I waged all of my body and mind
But sometimes
I just wish I died
("Essay on Crying in Public"-Sam Sax)
How fast the world spun just after the fact
Left you young and still wondering
Left me so dizzy and sorry
Leeched the life from inside me
And twisted my guts for good measure
Not sure why
After all this time
I let myself bleed out
But it just happens that way
Maybe I'm just too used to the feeing
Maybe it sits as
More of a home than I think