Calenraps Disarray
[Verse 1]
I done been through hell and back, chasing dreams selling raps
Rather share my story now 'cause I know they gon' tell it whack
Niggas said that I would fail, [?] I'm well intact
Clientele developing from selling crack
Even though I'm barely ever sleeping, treat my body like I'm Iron Man
Poppin' all these Robert Downey Juniors tryna fly again
Mama I've been spending all my nights inside that lion den
'Cause I ain't wanna see you cry again
Vino where you been at? 'Preciate the impact
Heard that I just missed you, guess it was a mishap
Living out in Dallas now you ballin' like Kristaps
But you want my opinion, you should probably get your bitch back
Dawg we been connеcted from the bottom like a chinstrap
Don't tеll me you no different when you switch up I can sense that
If even when you're tripping bro, just hit me, I'm on dispatch
The past is just the present we present inside a gift wrap
[Chorus]
Livin' in a disarray, reminiscing drift away
I ain't been granted every wish but I guess this okay
Wishing I could fix it, hey
Maybe on a different day
Now every time I close my eyes it feels like parts of my life go by
I fall right apart, don't quite know why
Busy watching life go by
[Verse 2]
Brittany you still heaven-sent, everything I said I meant
Hope that he can take you all them places that we never went
I've been chasing paper baby everyday I'm stressing rent
Time's the only treasure that I never spent
Losing all my values, I ain't never had no morals
Always been to proud to sit and rest upon my [?]
Now my petal on that floor until I'm dead below the floral
Should've died so many times sometimes I question if I'm mortal
Now I can't even look at you, 'cause every time I see your face
All I see if everything you put me through, you probably think I'm bulletproof
'Cause I be acting confident and full of myself, but shorty I was only fooling you
I promise if you fully knew, how much I fear that I won't be good as you
When you find someone new that your energy should be put into
Just keep on rollin' your kush and letting the kush in you
And I'll be home for you soon
[Chorus]
Livin' in a disarray, reminiscing drift away
I ain't been granted every wish but I guess this okay
Wishing I could fix it, hey
Maybe on a different day
Now every time I close my eyes it feels like parts of my life go by
I fall right apart, don't quite know why
Busy watching life go by