Calenraps Used To
We used to have discussions
Now we can't talk to each other
Cuz it feels like I'm interrupting
Act like you listening
You never listen
You don't hear nothing
Last night i thought about our last time f..ckin
Had you walking round here blushing
Talking bout adjustments
Now i ain't budging
Cuz anything to give i already gave
You ain't gon get it till I'm gone in a grave
And if you ever need me
I be hiding in a cave
Cuz even real n***** get tired of being brave
I remember sitting outside all day
Waiting on love
Like I'm waiting on a play
But you ain't never come back around my way
But even if you did i knew you wasn't gonna stay
Tired of being hurt
Told i ain't worth shit
Never told you i was perfect
Insecurities make me feel uncertain
You tell me calm down but i keep on cursing
I wish i could love you as deep as im hurting
But i don't open up i just keep a closed curtain
And this might've worked back when we was both virgins
But i done seen to many people change versions bae
And i know you ain't ever gon trust me
I know You ain't ever gon touch me, the way that you used to
But i don't want nobody else
Cuz i don't wanna know nobody in the way that i knew you
Hands on like im taking off Bluetooth
Anything just to show you that I'm here
Pouring up liquor while i'm pouring out tears
Not supporting you might've been my poorest idea
I miss driving around looking for an ikea
And everything else about the last 4 or 5 years
Ever since you left me ive been avoiding my fears
Too porcelain to ever be the voice of my peers
I am easily broken
And its hard to keep things in motion
Six weeks since we spoken
I just hope you reach out to me
Got me halfway off the balcony
Falling
I just hope you reach out to me
(Do you feel the same do you numb the pain i don't know
I don't feel the same yet i can't explain i don't kid at all oh no
Got me halfway off this balcony
Hoping you'll talk to me)???