Calenraps I Fall Apart
[Verse 1]
There's a lot that I been trying to discuss
Cuz it's like everything I do now just reminds me of us
And how could I possibly go find another partner I trust
When you left with part of me and left the other part of me crushed
You ever been in love with somebody for so long?
That you afraid of what's gon' happen if you don't hold on
So instead of letting go you just hold on tight, loving you was like the first time I rode my bike
I fell hard
Not talking to you all throughout my day has felt odd
I miss when I would lay it down and you would tell me I'm a God
Bae my ego like my shoulders sometimes it need a massage
I wish you looked at it broad enough to see the bigger picture but you telling me it's tough for you
My life without you in it is some shit that I just suffer through
Ever since I fumbled you I only seem to covet you
But bae I won't recover Til' the day that I recover you
I've tried so many remedies
You was begging like please nigga, now it's nigga please
Said you tired of inconsistencies
And bae I get it I tire of me consistently
See the man in the mirror and wish I looked at him differently
Wish he had different tendencies addicted to these bad habits
Trying to see how many swishers kill an asthmatic
Had some ideas that wasn't that pragmatic
Fell down flat on my back but I'm back at it
[Chorus]
You know I fall apart sometimes
It's no secret
Sometimes I show heart
Sometimes I show weakness
You say I ain't shit
Babygirl we in agreement
I am not the nigga
That you wanna start a team with
Cuz I fall apart sometimes
It's no secret
I always seemed to drown
The times I fell deepest
My list got way more regrets
Than achievements
One voice message from my ex
In my recents
[Verse 2]
She said
It's obvious we ain't gon' last
But a part of me feels like it ain't so sad
Cuz at least we both still young
Calen I figured I would hold your son
But I guess you figured
That the hoes more fun
So imma go don't run
And try chasing me
Telling me you gon' change
After everything that you did
I could never see you the same
I'm forever feeling this pain
I'm forever feeling insane
Cuz you fed me all of your game
Then you left me out in the rain
Instead of cleaning up my act
I just do more dirt
I swear I only tell you lies
When the truth gon hurt
It's like the more I lose you
The more I lose my worth
I always figured I would move on first
But I ain't moved one bit
I hope you never find nobody
You can move on with
Cuz you can't name nobody else
That got you through more shit
Still the only one
That ever got me to commit
Or submit
Shit me and you just click
But I'll admit
I could've been
A better man in your life
Had some fights
And I didn't always handle them right
But expanded your light
When you was trapped in the dark
And I extracted
All the past shit from your heart
Like the last nigga
That didn't have your back from the start
He a mark
Fuck that bitch nigga baby you a star
I'm trying to take you to them places
You can't make it in a car
And treat you as amazing as you are
[Chorus]
But I fall apart sometimes
It's no secret
Sometimes I show heart
Sometimes I show weakness
You say I ain't shit
Babygirl we in agreement
I am not the nigga
That you wanna start a team with
Cuz I fall apart sometimes
It's no secret
Sometimes I show heart
Sometimes I show weakness
You say I ain't shit
Babygirl we in agreement
I am not the nigga
That you wanna start a team with